I saw this picture and i think it best describes my life now..well im have a mission to accomplish.i want to write a short story of my life being in love and hurt recently will do that on my flight..well i always have this believe i dont know if any of u believe this bt i do....the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry..the only person who can make you stop being hurt in pain is the person who hurt you so badly..its hard letting go love.cos its a part of us which has been bonded in our heart.but what can we actually do?we force ourselves to remove it.but then after removing it u'll realise a part of u died.u feel lost, ur soul will be wondering about aimlessly..so u just pretend to be strong.pretend ur moving on with life as normal.you show that person u can live without him.u go enjoy life.fuck around,drink till u drop,dance ur ass off,flirt with all the guys who passes smiles at you..and u lie to yourselve.you become the person your not but more of the person that he is or wants you to be..more of him and less of urself.you may seem to enjoy it 1st when ur in dat state of enjoying but after that moment stops, u realise ur lost and wondering again.Its like a temporary drug or pain killer.you consume more of it when ur in the lost state and you cant stop urself.Till the end of the day all the smiles and laughs lies a sad soul.a hurt soul, bruised soul.longin for his every bit again.Love, a word used too often these days.people make use of that simple word.a word so simple holds a long explaination to it. they use it as and when they please.sometmes u look back and wonder.did they use dat jus bcos he doesnt want to feel left out?did he use it bcos he wasnt sure what he feels?did he use it just for the fun of it?and then u really wonder..but he said he realy loves me n i meant the world to him he would never leave me for another guy.look at it now where is he?he stray away so easily with a misunderstanding.then whst was love worth of?u spend ur entire time for him.u get worried when somthing bother him,u cry when u love him so much.do you really want that all?you can love him as much as you want but are you willing to go thro the pain u went thro b4?tired,drained,exhausted?then u realise those are the things which actually triggers ur emotions.your own fears of being hurt by the same person.Then u tell yourself let it die in you slowy.and you'll die along with it..sigh..a deep saddness in me..but still longin for..