So it was my mum's bdae ystd.Sadly i was a bad son, i actually didnt remember it was her bdae.till like my younger sis came home and asked me where's mum..and i told her 'oh she went out, why?' its her bdae rite today.'huh seriously?whats todays date? i checked my calender on my hp and i was like wtf it is my mum bdae.but it was too late to wish her..so i only wished her today after i got back from jaey's place..'mummy im sorry i didnt wish u last nite but i hope its not to late to do it..and she laughed and said sure..so i hugged her and kissed her.and suddenly she asked a question i wished she really didnt had to ask..'so where's that guy?i haven't seen him comin again after that time'..i was like huh?what guy?who?dean or jaey?..no la not them, the tall skinny guy..then i just stared at her blankly and my eyes jus got teary..she's asked why are u crying?and i jus said nothin and went up to my room..after a while she came into my room and saw me cryin like a fool..i really hate it when someone sees me in such condition espeially my mum..she asked me come tell me what happened..and eventually i had to tell her that we broke up..and she asked why didnt u tell me anything..i told she cos i jus didnt want u to know i screwed up my life with the same person again..she asked me what happened this time..and i told her everything..and one response i got from my mum love is some stupid game..well clearly i agree with my mum..and she said sumthin to me which i've never heard her said or even advice me nor any of my siblings..'u noe i love you alot!i'l will not let someone ruin or even make use of my son..i noe u still love him and u always will..i could tell..but its up to you..as far as im concern mummy is always here for u okay..and she asked u still miss him dont u..and i said ya its everyday.still killing me inside.she told me to take his pic.,so i opened my drawer and took his pic out and she reached out for a lighter in front of her and jus set the picture on fire..see im burning him cos the person u loved died.he's not going to come alive anymore.so jus grieve on his death..my mum jus knows me the best..mum and son bonding..well mum i love you with my whole heart.even though sometimes i might say nasty things to you i never did meant any of it..i jus want to be alone with my friends like jaey and dean..cos they are the one who will never stop loving me..men im so going to stay away from u guys..

Well apart from ystd i was out on sat.john came back this time to see me and not on his flights.so i stayed with him at the intercontinental.We went out that night to tantrics cos he wanted to see jason.so we went there had a drink and then we went to taboo..at taboo i bumped into dave this japanese chinese guy i use to date long ago.so i waved and said hi..but then he pulled me and started talkin nonsense..he was hugging me and kissing me all over like some despo..but i guess he was drunk.cos he cudnt stand up right..and john got jealous and started pulling me away from him..haha..jus wierd..so i left taboo and went back to the hotel cos i was too tired..john was there with jason cos jason got sad and all that about his life so i told john to stick around him..and i jus hate clubing this days.god noes why.i jus get annoyed around loud music..havent been clubbing for so long tho..but i went back and jus slept.john got back about an hour after i left..so we went to bed and jus waited for the next day.cos it was his bdae.and i had a suprise for him..the morning came we had breakfast at the hotel then i went back home to get his gift..we then headed down to sentosa to cafe del mar..cos he said he wanted to go there but never had the chance..so i did the right thing at the right time..haha.we invited a few of his frens helen,mark,ollie and jason..but only jason made it..helen and mark were out of town and ollie was having dinner plans with his folks..so it was back with the trio..we had so much fun..

Then it was monday and i had to leave john cos i was working.but gladly ollie came over to the hotel and accompanied john before his flight..so i said goodbye to john and went to work..and im so happy he left.for some reasons.and ya i bought the cowboy boots i was eyeing on for so long!!finally y'all..

I was at jaey's cib this morning to take care of him and his younger sis cos his mum is at he hospital..and i promised her i wud take good care of them for her..so i went to buy breakfast for them and chilled out at his place and make sure he was okay..and awhile dean came over as well and we hanged out jus liked the old times..haha..i love them so much..and dun worry jaey..god will always help kind and good souls..i will pray for her recovery..and im here for u okay!!!and im happy cos they are showing grey's anatomy tonite..woohoo!!and i'll be in hong kong in sat so i guessi will blog once im back for hong kong..till then ciao de bella